death

i just heard that my auntie died.

i've never cried when someone died.
all my tears are shed before the actual death.
but when it happens i can't bring myself to cry.

my soul is in shock i guess.
they say when you're in shock you feel no pain.
a little piece of my soul breaks off when someone that i know dies.
then it has to regroup and reform in order to function without that piece.

[sigh]