virginity.

am i the only female that thinks it's really not that serious?

i still have my v-card, but not for some dumb "oh it's a gift, i'm saving it until i'm in love blahblahblah" reason. i just haven't had a serious enough relationship where having sex was a reasonable idea.

i would like to know that you have another girl/have children/like to beat bitches/think africa is a country, before i fuck you, not after. i tend to talk to guys and realize early on that they will annoy the shit out of me, why waste my time (and body) on them? i don't feel like i need to be in love. but i at least have to know that you respect me and won't be an asshole. why is that so hard to find?

but girls who think they're special because they're virgins irritate me. so does this mean you won't be special anymore after you do it? basing part of your identity on something so (hopefully) temporary is stupid to me. saving it until marriage is completely unfeasible in this day and age and kinda dumb. why marry someone before you know what you like? and then if they suck in bed you're kinda stuck. i mean i guess i understand for religious reasons, but even christians need to be in tune with their bodies.


in conclusion: have sex.

cee-lo green and his perfect imperfections.

i remember when i first saw this video, i was 13 and i thought that 106 & park/trl was the utmost in music and entertainment i was like "ew this is weird"




but now i know how ridiculously dope cee-lo is and his album 'cee-lo green and his perfect imperfections' has been on repeat for the past week




-well damn 'lo, what don't you do?
-bullshit!

*on that note i'll stop bullshitting and write this paper, lol

wtf

am i the only person who saw this commercial and wanted to write a strongly worded letter to the burger king people?
and i am by no means a prude. but sometimes little things bother me.

talk about objectification.
square or not, it's still chicks shaking their asses...FOR KID'S MEALS!
REALLY?!
i'd see if it were people in general dancing with square asses, but it's just women.

if it wasn't for kid's meals i'd still think it was kind of wack but ignored it
but really?
and people are like it's just adults taking it too seriously and kid's won't think anything about it.
and then when they see susie dropping it like it's hot it's everybody elses's fault

how you doing beautiful?

"damn you must have a man as fine as you are"

that's an annoying assumption.
but thank you mr. 30 year old dominos delivery man.

why do guys that are my age not flirt with me?
if they are my age they're usually hood niggas
my country/suburban ass can't handle all that.
apparently different types of dudes will approach me after i chop my hair off.
not really in the mood for the 'we are the universe and the universe is ours', kufi wearing, incense burning dudes either.
i like to curse, drink liquor, eat meat, and dance to ridiculous electro-pop.


blah.
death month.
bring on the red bull/5 hour energy shots.
[not back to back, tried that once and it was a VERY bad idea]
i'm pretty sure a study will come out 10 years from now saying 5hr energy shots cause cancer.

love.

from 3:10 on makes my world.

_________

the early bird gets the worm
and i don't even go to sleep...
-blu

this lyric randomly popped into my head as i was walking outside @ 5:30 a.m. [don't ask] and a little bird just hopped across my path with a worm hanging from its mouth. i just started laughing out loud since i was the only person there anyway.

of all the times to not have my camera.


clearly i really need to sleep more.

theme music.

i'm still amazed at how long i let this gem languish on my computer a year and some change ago.
'place to belong' is currently my theme music for the week.
it's one of the few albums where i don't skip songs.
you should buy it if you don't have it.

rah rah.

Franklin Street: The Celebration from The Daily Tar Heel on Vimeo.


i was very intimate with about 1000 people being almost crushed and by the end of the night my hair smelled like sweat and smoke.

so worth it.

quiet before the storm...

i had a GREAT weekend.
free food + friends/family + BLU
being 20 isn't so bad

it would be great if i had a computer to put up pictures.

and now the downward slope towards finals and wanting to die.

blah.

hypocrisy.

so today i was reminded how black women are such hypocrites when it comes to interracial relationships, and how i don't really care.

today i was at work and 2 of my good friends came over, one of them noticed an attractive well dressed black dude and was wondering who he was and blahblahblah. although i don't know him personally i knew who he was and also the fact that he tends to date white girls.

*insert our collective groan and rolling of eyes*

however
both of these friends tend to be interested in/date white men.

one of my friends immediately enters extreme ABW [angry black woman] syndrome any time interracial relationships are even discussed or seen on tv or in person.

hell, a biracial black/latina girl wrote in our school newspaper about how she hates seeing black men with nonblack women which confused even me since without black men dating nonblack womem, she wouldn't be alive.


hence our blatant hypocrisy.
but i completely understand it.

people are attracted to people of other races, that's normal since we're all human [more or less] but i think most of the time some black women believe that if a black man is attracted to a non-black woman that means that he is not attracted to black women. now sometimes that actually is true. but usually it isn't.

whereas black woman believe that if they see a black woman with a nonblack man, well it must be true love. sometimes that's true, sometimes it isn't.
and black women seem to fawn over nonblack men who tend to like black women which actually seems like some low ass collective self-esteem. it's like somebody who isn't black thinks we're pretty! he must be extra special! -_-


really, we all just need to chill out and not care what other people do. if a black dude actually actively doesn't date black women, then clearly you wouldn't have wanted his wack ass anyway so you're obviously not missing out on anything.
my philosophy in life is, if you don't like me, clearly you're wack. [obviously i was raised by an extremely self-confident mother]


but i will still laugh the next time my friend enters ABW mode and let out a silent groan when i see an attractive black guy with a non-black girl, especially if she isn't attractive.


because i'm a hypocrite like that.