the magic stick/bored with my hair.

so i've posted about how my skin pisses me off and have finally found something that is starting to work for me. other than washing my face with whatever is lying around [i refuse to buy any new face wash before i use up what i already have] i've been using this thing[it's $8 @ whole foods and $5 @ trader joe's. whole foods is such a fucking rip off.]

i apply this stuff morning/night and whenever i'm sitting around absentmindedly during the day. my blemishes go down really quickly and my existing marks are starting to fade. plus it's all-natural and all that hippie shit.

i've kind of been ignoring my hair. well, actually i guess you could say that i've been wearing it in a "protective style". i like my hair texture but i feel like it's too short for me to really do anything with so i wash it once a week, twist it with oyinhandmade whipped pudding, pin it up, and wear hats all week [with a scarf underneath and still moisturizing every night] and wear a twist out on weekends. i figured i'm not seeing anyone since school isn't in session and i'm just going to work, it doesn't really matter what my head looks like lol.
i'm sure when school starts i'm going to have to keep it up nicely and actually do something to it until i get braids next month. grrrr.

ennui.

it seems the more free time i have the less i do. hopefully that means i'll be supremely productive when school starts

random pictures i just took out of boredom:

see how that spot is still there? yeah still haven't gotten that fixed...

i'm actually vaguely busy with taking care of things for my apt and freaking out about how broke i will be because i have to pay for this shit. i don't want to be a senior and graduate and shit. i want to fuck around for at least 3 more years. i'll probably join the circus if my plan a of finding a sugar daddy fails...

i'm kidding.

i'll just be a hobo.

wow.

i saw this @racialicious.


i mean...i guess.
i don't know how i feel about this commercial

i chuckled then was like...wait...

i don't really take offense to the weave because i've never worn weave before.
did she have to have that attitude?
but you know that's how we act... [sarcasm]

do not watch the orphan.

if you actually plan on watching that foolishness i guess you shouldn't click on this in your subscriptions things. i was going to tweet this but some people may actually want to watch this...


this may be the most ridiculous premise for a movie i have ever seen in my life. most of the time was spent laughing and sighing at the gotcha! moments in the movie when the music gets all dramatic and you're supposed to expect someone scary to pop out of nowhere. the movie is really long for no apparent reason except to draw out the suspense to what the girl really is.

a woman has a miscarriage and wants to adopt a child to lavish the love she had on the lost child on someone else. so a family adopts a child who is believed to be from russia or whatever. people start getting injured/dying around the child and only the mother is suspicious. the orphan controls her other 2 children through fear and gets the little deaf daughter to help her hide bodies and shit by threatening to kill her.

to make a long story short.
the orphaned girl is really a sex-crazed psychopathic 33 year old dwarf.

i repeat.

a sex-crazed psychopathic 33 year old dwarf.


wtf.


she is a violent psychopath who has escaped from an insane asylum in estonia [she has scars from a straitjacket on her neck and wrists and wears ribbons to cover them up] and her m.o. is that she pretends to be 9 and gets adopted by families. she causes strife in the family to isolate the mothers and then tries to seduce the fathers. when the father refuses to have sex with her (understandably because he thinks that she's 9) she then kills him and the family and burns the house down.

i have many qualms with the ridiculousness of this movie.

#1 why would a woman with 2 kids already feel the need to adopt another older child?

#2 would you really keep a child who refused to show you her neck and wrists?

#3 the woman is a proportional dwarf. meaning that she's just a short woman. in the end you see that she tapes down her curves. why the fuck doesn't she just live as a really short woman? she would probably have a lot more success getting men to fuck her. and nobody noticed her having a period?

#4 [the "creepy" part of the movie is that she is artistically gifted and draws pretty pictures but somehow also paints with paint that only shows in fluorescent lighting which shows that her pretty drawings are actually sinister and evil. she also draws people having sex on her walls with this paint] WHERE THE FUCK DOES SHE GET FLUORESCENT PAINT?

#5 she wears fake teeth to cover up the fact that she has 33 year old, third world dental care teeth. where does she find these things?

#6 nobody in estonia [the asylum looked pretty sophisticated, with enough people that worked there conveniently speaking english] sent out an APB for a super violent dwarf after she escaped?



i mean if you suspend reality this could be a pretty decent comedy. only supreme ineptitude on the part of EVERYONE in the world would result in this actually being possible. what makes movies scary is the fact that what's happening could actually occur. [i.e. the strangers, where people kill you just because they feel like it]

the little girl is a great actress though.

you should watch it on hbo. let my sacrifice of $7.50 keep you from losing time and money too.

the nice guy fallacy.

am i the only one tired of guys [usually black] believing that because they are in college/grad school/whatever or have a non-minimum wage job they should just be welcomed with legs arms wide open.

you're not special because you aren't a bum. that's what you're SUPPOSED to do.
not working at mcdonalds full-time is great and all, but that doesn't make you the great catch you think you are.

and if [black] women aren't knocking themselves out over these "rare" guys, it apparently means that we only like thugs/bad boys.
just because a woman doesn't want you doesn't mean that she wants the antithesis of you. why don't you exfoliate your face and work on your personality. maybe that's the problem.

or these great "nice" guys tend to only go for the most superficial of qualities and then complain when the woman is boring as shit.

i could give a fuck what you do/have. being a secure person with goals is a GREAT base [that many don't have] but guys need an interesting personality too.

smh.


[what a random poorly thought out rant...i started it a while back when this dude pissed me off and just now felt it apropos to publish lol]

i was coerced.

http://twitter.com/PBelonious


friend me or whatever the fuck they do so i don't look completely stupid.

lyrics to go.

every now and then
i get a feeling
like i've left something behind me
but i don't know what it is yet.

like a tied a piece of string
round my finger
and i hope this will remind me
of the places i have been through

when i'm down
down
down

the noisettes are my new obsession.

elaquent

[it seems like the more free time i have, the less i blog. i have a bunch of half written shit saved...i'll publish them someday lol]

mostly all i listen to is beats and regina spektor as of late

[gotta love the fro on the cover]

this dude is dope. don't remember how i found him [i never do lol]
i just googled him and found the myspace today and am currently downloading the other joints that i don't have.

http://www.myspace.com/elaquenthiphop

free downers = love.

why can't i just sit around all day?

i work everyday. and take a class which i'm paying for out of pocket

one day off and none of my friends wants to answer their phones/texts

so i put some henna in my hair and just relax.

because my mom and her husband decided that they need to clean the garage i need to be doing something too.

wtf kind of logic is that.

i need to be cleaning my room or washing something...because i slept in and shouldn't sit around.

can i sit around one day?

the only talking my mother and i do is general niceties and her saying "you know what i just realized" which usually leads to something that I need to be doing or working on, never anything that she needs to be doing or even normal conversation. either that or i'm reminded of her bills and how much i owe her to contribute to pay for shit [phone bill/car insurance]


is it august yet?
i need to go get on my grind so i can get a job right out of school and not have to live here anymore.

i hope i never get this bored again...

i watched the bet awards...why?
i should have done my laundry.

i understand that they had to make it in 3 days...but really?

the most long ass awkward pauses and obvious teleprompter reading. they were never ready for nothing.

jamie foxx performing all willy nilly just to fill space.

sponsored by cititrends? i guess.

ciara should never sing ballads live. ever.

randomly busting out in mj tributes that make no sense.

chaka about to burst with her 5 girdles on.

eddie from the ojay's saying 'shit' on tv

ne-yo should always wear a hat. always. he has a fetus head.

t.i.'s ghetto ass baby mama accepting his award -_-

yvette and jody. -_-

the most anticlimactic final performance. with drake et. al. who sat for most of the performance...wtf. and please explain why you would have dancing children on stage while you perform "i want to fuck every girl in the world"?!?!? aubrey just sitting talking to 12 year olds in tutus. why don't you just go ahead and phone in your performance.

but JANET!!!! she a good one. i couldn't have spoken on stage. too bad her greasy ass daddy ain't shit, sitting in the audience grinning and shit. i hate joe jackson. if it wasn't for him michael wouldn't have been so fucked up.


in other news i should go to a jamie foxx concert...i'll just put on my zune when 'blame it' comes on