dear antoine reed.

i want to be on you.

fuck abraham lincoln

i soooooooo hate when people bring up abraham lincoln like he is some sort of savior and lover of black people.

yes he freed the slaves.
kind of.
he freed all slaves within the union.
the south was NOT in the union at the time of the emancipation proclamation. [if i'm wrong please correct me]

he stated himself many times that he thought that blacks were inferior to whites and that they did not deserve equal rights.
he only freed slaves to preserve the union. if he could have preserved it without freeing slaves, he definitely would have done so.

this whole rant was brought on by this kinda old illustration i saw with mlk jr. and abe in heaven watching obama give his democratic acceptance speech. if abe saw barack obama running for president now, i'm almost certain he would be like "WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE"

fuck him. people deify some people and neuter others. that's why most of the history that is taught in schools is bullshit.

incidentally, mlk jr. is a prime example of a historical figure that has been neutered. martin had more than a goddamn dream. he was not a nice peaceful man that everybody loved. if that were true THEY WOULDN'T HAVE KILLED HIM. it wasn't some fringe element, he was considered a threat to national security because he was telling blacks that they deserved to be treated like equals.

shitdamnmotherfucker. rant over.

umm...it was a black man

this shit here.

so i read this story yesterday or the day before about this white girl who was a mccain volunteer in some bumfuck town and she claimed that she was robbed and attacked by a black man [isn't it always a black man?] who after seeing her mccain/palin sticker on the back of her car proceeded to beat her and carve a 'b' on her face.

now when i saw this...and i saw the picture of the girl. i called bullshit.
[you can google it if you want]
one, the girl's eye was just vaguely purple, if someone gives you a black eye, that shit is swollen
two, how does someone carve a PERFECT 'b' in your face?!?! even if somebody is holding me down...i would think that i would be squirming and moving if they are carving up my damn face.

and of course. i was right.


the bitch lied.

i'm done.
fuck it.
obama '08

it's funny, right?

so i was looking on facebook at the 'people you may know' doohicky

and i saw this white girl who used to make me miserable in middle school.

she has a kid with another on the way with some 30 something year old dude that she's not married to.

and she's a stay at home mom who takes classes online.

well.

i don't really have anything substantive to say about that.

just found it interesting.

DEFINITELY don't envy her.

life is weird.

when i was 12 years old i had no idea where i was going to be 10 years later.

i doubt she did either. probably didn't think she'd be a stay at home mom with 2 kids.

for some reason this gets me thinking about my future.

i don't even know where i'm going to be NEXT year.

let's not even think about 5 years from now.

i'm interested in seeing life's curveballs.

[you like how i look at someone else and start talking about myself?]

theeee apple juice kid.

i've been aware of his existence for almost a year now.
he's from the chapel hill urrea and shit.
great percussionist and producer.
but i didn't really really get into him.
and then i login to myspace yesterday [music is the only thing myspace is good for] and see that he goes and drops this shit.

[i'm assuming it's pretty obvious where you can find it...]

obviously it's instrumental remixes of miles davis stuff.
pretty decent listen.
made one of the songs my new ringtone.
my favorites are violingreen [a lovely take on blue in green, and subsequently the version with raheem devaughn and yahzarah or purple st. james or whatever the fuck she goes by these days] and snapmusic [the new ringtone]

in addendum: blu + phonte = whaaaaaaaa?!?

dear kanye.

if you do one more song with a voice synthesizer thingamajig.

i will quit you.
i'm so serious.

stop that shit.

now.

you're not that great.

AND STOP DRESSING LIKE THE BLACK PEEWEE HERMAN.

and shave please.

on a side note...

808s and Heartbreak is a dope album name

and people will buy it just because you're kanye.

those are probably those people that wore those ugly ass impractical sunglasses just because you did.

i hate those people.

emotions.

those things.

i have none.
at least not all of them.

i am completely and utterly UN-empathetic
i am incapable of comforting people.

i'm incapable of being in relationships because it's very hard for me to attach to people.
this [and my shyness/awkwardness] is why it's really difficult for me to make friends. when i meet new people it's hard for me to get over that initial awkward stage. usually because i just don't care to make that small talk or relate or whatever, i kinda want to...but for some reason i just don't. i'm quite surprised i have the ones i have now.

it's slightly disturbing how easily i can cut someone out of my life and not miss that particular person, but i still feel that void at least. but i detach too easily for my liking.

i honestly have no idea what love is. i'm not even convinced that i truly love my family and friends.


on the flipside...i think i'm pretty fucking emo sometimes.
all that angsty shit. all that. but i think most of that emo shit is wondering why i'm so cold and distant and why i can't do better.

i guess that's why i like music so much.
they do my feeling for me.







i think i'm a robot.
eh.




*does the robot*

remember this?

changed my life.
people still looking for another lauryn
she just dropped a classic and went batshit crazy.
...sigh

who is barack obama?

Contrary to the rumors you may have heard, I was not born in a manger. I was actually born on Krypton and sent here by my father, Jor-El, to save the planet Earth…Many of you know I got my name, Barack, from my father. It’s actually Swahili for ‘That One.’ And I got my middle name, obviously, from someone who never thought I’d be running for president.









indeed.

oh mother.

i love my mother.
i really do.
but most times she works my nerves so bad.
most of my friends have been hearing my mom bullshit
to some people these would be minor problems but i'm not those people.

she's in the process of trying to teach me how to be an adult/force responsibilities upon me while still treating me like a child. this is impossible and frustrating for all parties involved
i'm forced to contribute to my tuition/school expenses and buy my own food and clothing. i COMPLETELY understand and agree with this. my problem is that my mother is usually a bitch about and nags me like i'm a child to "remind" me of doing something that i'm already doing.

she also expects me to be able to buy things that i need and take care of business all while not having a car. that little fender bender i got in at the very beginning of the school year resulted in my car being taken away. now i understand this for a short punishment period or whatnot. but i kind of need a car in order to take care of business. [example: i need to go to the optometrist next week. my mom tells me that i should take the fucking bus rather than letting me drive my car. 1) i don't do buses, 2) i don't do DURHAM buses.]

also, i am a messy person, anyone who knows me knows this. my mom has taken it upon herself to attempt to clean my room for me once a month. now a small part of me is like hey, if she wants to volunteer free maid service be my guest. but the rest is like...you're grown you really shouldn't have your mother cleaning up after you, you can do that shit yourself [that and i really don't need her finding my liquor stash]

i guess this is growing pains and shit
fuck that.

my favorite color pt. 2

i hate more posting more than once a day but this merits it







my fucking dude. and he mentions jack?
got me paying for albums and shit.
blu for president.

this is hilarious to me

i've heard that these things exist but i didn't really believe it until i saw it myself.
what kind of dumb ass would really sent their information?

Atm card payment for fund beneficiaries.
Office of the director of operations
International credit settlement
Central Bank of Nigeria.


Attention: Beneficiary:


I am Mr. Tahir Sabo, national special adviser to president Alhaji Umaru Musa Yaradua Federal Republic of Nigeria. This is to officially inform you that we have verified your contract/inheritance file and found out that why you have not received your payment is because you have not fulfilled the obligations given to you in respect of your contract / inheritance payment.


Secondly we have been informed that you are still dealing with the none officials in the bank your entire attempt to secure the release of the fund to you. We wish to advise you that such an illegal act like this has to stop if you wish to receive your payment since we have decided to bring a
solution to your problem.


Right now we have arranged your payment through our swift card payment center Asia pacific that is the latest instruction by the president Alahji Umaru Musa Yaradua Federal Republic of Nigeria.


This card center will send you an Atm Card which you will use to withdraw your money in any atm machine in any part of the world, but the maximum is Five thousand dollars per day, so if you like to receive your fund this way please let us know by contacting the card payment center and also send the following information:


1 Your full name
2.Phone and fax number,
3.Address were you want them to send the atm card
4.Your age and current occupation
5.A copy of your identity


Rev. Seth E.Nweke.
International Credit Settlement/
Minister for Information and
National Orientation.
E-mail: email: mayorfrankmail@aol.com



The Atm Card payment center has been mandated to issue out 8,300,000.00 as part payment for this fiscal year 2008. Also for your information you have to stop any further communication with any other person(s) or office(s). This is to avoid any hitches in finalizing your payment.


Email back as soon as you receive this important message for further direction in this regards and also updates me on any development from the above-mentioned office.


Note: that because of impostors, we hereby issued you our code of conduct, which is (816) so you have to indicate this code when contacting the card center.

Mr. Sabo Tahir
National Special Adviser
Tele: + 234-8033-892-187
Fax: + 234-1-759 24 11
Email: alhajiabdallah@voila.fr

hahaha...i love nigerians.

now watch me.

i would never condone destroying somebody's property.

but she makes it sound so fun.

plus her album is that fire.

the world must be coming to an end.

i like a beyonce song that i'm not ashamed of...
is she done using her voice for evil?

only time will tell

btw. i HATE her speaking voice. she should just sing only and not talk

future screw

just making a [technically 2nd] vid for a 2 year old song?
i'm cool with that, being the j*davey stan that i am.
i NEED some new shit though

friday

+

=

good night.

LMAO

HAHAHAHA

this is CLASSIC

my.space

that lamp is the happiest i've ever been about a piece of furniture

why yes, that is a zora neale hurston finger puppet

that lamp was originally white, i ended up spraypainting it

shouldn't i be doing work?
yes, yes i should.